With every tragedy there has to be a time to mourn and a time to heal.
Pat and I have been doing just that, in very different ways. He has started making big changes for himself by signing up for school and absorbing himself in house projects. He is working so hard to make our future a little brighter by improving all things he has control of.
I, on the other hand, have been healing by distraction. First it was watching TV and feeling numb. Then it was watching TV to cry. I watched "A Baby Story" for 3 hours one day. Some may feel that is a mistake, but I think it is one of the best things I did. I learned about a couple that lost their baby at 35 weeks! Although they were terribly distraught, they not only tried (and succeeded) again for a baby, but they also started a program in their 1st baby's name for families that had suffered a miscarriage or still-born.
That was something that moved me forward towards healing. There has to be something good that comes out of the bad. I am still working on that "good thing," but it will come.
In the mean time, I had the luxury to spend time with my close friends and sister this last weekend and it really was nice to feel like some of the "gloom" was lifted from around me. We all shared laughs and smiles and I was even fortunate enough to meet some new great friends at the Arizona Blogger Conference that The PHX Style Collective put together.
Everyone was running around in their most stylish gear snapping photos of the beautiful Saguaro Hotel. Instead of doing that, I was being the silent observer, enjoying strangers' company and feeling relief that Bri was the only person that knew what I had recently gone through. That night was a night of moving forward.
Here is the one photo I stole from Bri, taken by Sarah from Chicks Who Give a Hoot, who coincidentally happens to be the funniest person I met all night!
So to everyone who attended, that may or may not pop by my blog, thanks for the great night and helping this girl smile!